I may have not blogged for a while. When I was younger, I used my negative emotions to write poems and essays as an outlet. To let go of it thru writing. But now it is different. Now, I have become more mature when dealing with my emotions, and I'd rather keep it to myself and pray.
Someone asked me what my weakness was and it took me sometime to think deeply what it is. It is my family. I grew up having my parents and brothers always around me. We were taught that the most important thing is having a complete family, my Mom and Dad never wanted a broken family. They did all means just to keep us binded despite the storms that went our way.
A family can never be completely happy. We had to go through different trials to test our faith and love for one another. Although we are not used to show our feelings, we know how much we love each other, how we care for one another. One's problem is everyone's problem.
I never asked for anything fancy from God, my simple wish is that we will all grow old together as a happy family. I want my parents to see their grandchildren get married and have kids. I want them to always be there for us to guide us in the decisions we make. I just want my parents to live peacefully, now that we their kids are all grown up. But it seems so impossible right now. Sometimes, I ask God why we have to go through another trial. It never seem to end. But then, we just have to trust in Him, that He will always be there, coz He never gives us problems that we could not carry. For now, we just have to lift up everything to Him. I believe one day, this will all end, and my family can be genuinely happy once again.
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